Right now.

I wanna kill people. Like literally kill people. So you see, everyone likes it when I act like an underdog and I’m like super nice and dumb? Well if that’s what you see and what you know about me? You know nothing, even a single shit. Kindness is my defense mechanism. And I am fucking getting tired of it. I don’t want to be mad, really. Because when I am mad, I tend to throw everything and push people away. And there is no turning back. And I don’t like that, I am even afraid with myself, of what can I do. Because when everything’s fucked up, I’ll fuck it more up, all the way. And I don’t know what to do about that. I don’t know if I want them to know about that. Or maybe not. I don’t want my walls to be crushed down with some irrelevant creatures. And the worst thing is, I know all of it, I know what they’re thinking, or feeling, or showing, as if I am just a shadow behind them. The worst is, I don’t even fucking care.

"In a sense, I’m the one who ruined me: I did it myself."
— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84 (via feellng)

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Fun facts about me:

1. I could not talk for a week. (It’s up to me.)
2. Most of the time, I DON’T FUCKING CARE. 
3. When I am pissed off, okay, I’m like *you have to be nice,* but I actually killed you all inside my head. 
4. I like extremes. I do not believe in moderation. 
5. You’ll never know me.

HERE IS THE LIGHTER PART

6. I hate marshmallows and those gummy bears and sour shits.

7. I have trust issues.

8. I believe in the existence of God but I do not have religion. 

9. Most of the time, I do things because I think they are needed but not that I wanted to do ‘em. 

10. I tend to hurt the ones I love. 

"I decided on you, don’t you get that? I decided on you. I don’t want to go fucking other people and then walk around feeling thrilled and then sad, or empty, or whatever. I like the smell of your hair, and I like the sound of your voice, and I fucking decided on you."
— (via gordost-i-sujeta)

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You’ll never know me.

You’ll never know me.

langleav:

Wrote this today, hope you like it! ♥ Also, please remember to pre-order a copy of my new book Lullabies, availableat all major bookstores. To get a special discount now, purchase online at Amazon, BN.com and The Book Depository. So much love to you all!xo Lang

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langleav:

A new piece from my book, Lullabies. Pre-order a copy from any major book store or save up to 30% online now at Amazon, BN.com or The Book Depository xo Lang

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Moonrise Kingdom

Moonrise Kingdom

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"Wait for the sunset.
Watch pained reds
and ambers sink
into non-existence.

Watch for the
magnificence of
sunrise, for a new
chance to hope."
Noor Shirazie (via aestheticintrovert)